I don’t know if it started on my birthday. Probably before. Yes, I remember. It was when I kept getting bigger and not smaller. When I moved clothes out of my closet or to the high shelves. “Maybe someday I will wear them again.” Vanity is a ghastly thing.
I hope it gets better…this acceptance of getting older. I’m starting to see those wrinkles, finally acknowledging the varicose veins. It is bothering me more than I thought it would.
My late twenties and early thirties were fun. I felt good. I was healthy. We kept busy. The last year, I don’t know, just seemed less fun. Lots of being busy, more stressful, feeling bad that I wouldn’t work on losing weight. All in my head. All my own fault.
This year I am hoping to reverse that attitude. Be better.
I want to be better.
I want to be a better mom.
I want to be a better wife.
I want to be better about staying in touch with family and friends.
I want to be better about going to church and being involved in that community.
I want to be better about showing our kids charity.
I want to be better about cooking them more nutritious meals.
I want to be a better photographer.
I want to be better at controlling spending.
I want to be better at controlling my eating.
I want to be better at exercising.
I want to be better at keeping the house the clean and the clothes washed.
I want to be better at my design work.
I want to be better at finding ways to commercialize my design work.
I want to be better at work.
I want to be better.
I just don’t have the time for everything…
…but I’m working on it.
Well, if we are going to gage how well you do by that picture, I’d say you are going to have a great year. It really is fantastic.
I totally get AAAALLLLL of those! I do! I do! Congrats on your weight loss so far! You are so so close!!! Keep on going girl!!
(((hugs)))
Amy
It is a hard transition, I think. But, I look at women who are older & they seem to be ok with the aging thing (at least somewhat ok), so I think we’ll get there (with maybe a few plastic surgery procedures along the way! LOL!) I think the most important thing is to age gracefully & I have no doubt you will! By the way, you do not look old AT ALL!!!
I hope you get all you are wanting and working for this year! I have a feeling you will, you are already so well on your way!
I so agree with you! You know what, my husband actually had the gall to tell me that I had wrinkles in more places….which was like telling me I’m fat. After the c-section in June I can’t say I was thrilled to hear that comment. With family, working full time, and grad school, some how making it to the gym is not a reality right now. However. I hope you have a good birthday anyways. Getting older is always rough!
In other news, my Mom and I finished that taggy blanket finally. Months later. I’ll post a picture next week. 🙂
You must look in the mirror and see something totally different than the rest of us, as we see one hot mama! You look amazing to me. I am struggling with the age thing right now too. I am “only” mid-twenties, but in many ways I feel like I just now starting my life and it’s late for that. I have a similar things I want for myself…here’s hoping we both look back in a few months with a sense of satisfaction! Oh, and while I think it’s good to always be striving to do better…it’s also good to prioritize and recognize our limits without guilt!
Well said Christina! And also to acknowledge our own strengths. I challenge you to do a similar list, same categories….but making a positive statement about what you currently do 🙂
On the age front, I think I am becoming more resigned to aging now as I stare down the barrel of 50. Not enjoying it mind you, but accepting more easily. 40 was hard.
You on the other hand are extraordinary and beautiful just as you are. Well done with the fitness and weight loss regime. You’ve inspired me. Gym again tomorrow.
Gosh what can a guy say to this one???? LOL
Christina and arizaphale pretty much summed it up though…
And remember:
What the caterpillar calls the end.
the world calls a butterfly…
Lofty goals! You can do it!!